But recently I've been noticing how much more confidence I have in myself, which is incredibly important to me, considering the place I was in, lets say, last year.. But what does sense of self mean?
Its your personality, your identity and your self esteem, which makes up the very core of who you are as a person. So in my case that brings alot of positivity to my life, I have a tendency to shy away from large groups of people, I would much rather sit in the corner and talk to one person than a group, but I've found as I've become more independent, it's increased my confidence and boosted my sense of self.
Friendship is so important to me and growing up in my later teens, I always felt like I didn't have any friends.. acquaintances, maybe, but if somebody didn't like me or want to hang out, I would take it personally and feel as though I wasn't good enough. It was all down to my sense of self and confidence in myself.
Because I had none.
Back to my little reflection earlier, people say hurtful things because their sense of self is warped or broken in some kind of way, and if they can't accept you or even want to, then why should their warped ideas or opinions determine your self-worth?
Same goes for dating, going back to a post I wrote a while back - after reading it again I thought why the hell did I feel that way - if somebody wants to join me on my crazy whirlwind, then that's cool. But if they don't it isn't a reflection of myself.
For once in my life I feel like I rule.. and I wanted to shout about it, and rant.. about stuff